S.W.A.T

So, my cousin Curtis slept over, he's my neighbour and I've known him since he was five and he's... I think twelve now.. I can't be sure, I'm not good with ages. Anyways he slept over and what we usually do is watch movies until 6am and than wake up at 1pm. We watched one movie. S.W.A.T and what I have to say about it....
IT WAS FRICKEN AMAZING!!!!

I mean I love action movies, my personal favourites are 16 Blocks with Bruce Willis, Taken with Liam Neeson, The Hurt Locker with who knows, and S.W.A.T!

S.W.A.T:

Basically Jim Street (My favourite character!) and his former partner Brian Gamble were told to 'hold' their position when they were sneaking into the bank, but Gamble didn't listen and Jim followed him. Gamble than shot a woman that the bank robber was holding up for a hostage, leaving her to sue the city. Gamble didn't want to be "Fuller's b**ch" anymore and left the squadrent, Jim on the other hand new he worked hard to become S.W.A.T and when he was kicked off the force he worked ina gun cage for 6 months until "Hondo" found him and recruited him on his new team. Anyways, there was this total idiot, Alex Montell, who was in for multiple crimes in many different countries. Eventually T.J, Streets own team mate was forced to take sides and when he was offered the $100 million Montell promised to his rescuers, he couldn't refuse and took the bad side along with Gamble. Leaving Gamble to shoot Boxer (another team mate) and T.J to feel remorse. Fleeing they rescued Montell and were about to get away when Hondo, Sanchez, Deke, and Street to beat the bad guys and leaving Gamble as well as T.Jto be sent away in a body bag.

Best. Movie. Ever.

Well probably not but I watched it before and forgot how good it was!

Pictures:
1. Sgt. Daniel 'Hondo' Harrelson (Samuel L. Jackson)
2. Jim Street (Colin Farrel <3)
3. Deacon 'Deke' Kay (LL Cool J)
4. Chris Sanchez (Michelle Rodriguez)
5. Michael Boxer (Brian Van Holt)
6. TJ McCabe (Josh Charles)
7. Brian Gamble (Jeremy Renner)

New Blog

So, last night I was watching Shrek 2, when Fiona's father rode to the bar thingy to get Puss in Boots to 'take care' of the ogre. He was riding a horse than I'm like, hey... I don't have a blog about horsies! I want a blog that has horses. Than I thought more about it, and I was like HAH! MacFarlane's Ranch from Red Dead Redemption, I love riding horses there, and than I was like yep. I'm creating a horse blog.
So here it is

Silver Crest Ranch

Dreams

Dreams...
Lately I've been remembering mine, usually I don't. Maybe it's because I go to bed really late, like after 5:00am and I'm always woken up at like 10:00am because my family is up, than I go back to bed and I wake up for good at around 1:30pm. Yeah, I think because I'm woken up in the middle of my sleep I continue my dream and remember it... well two days ago... this was my dream:

I guess I was playing capture the flag outside and my ex boyfriend, who I still have like.. |     | that much feelings for still went to sit down on some random person's front lawn which was a slight slope, so I sat down beside my cousin Hector (I don't even know why he was there! I can't stand the kid!). Than Zach (my ex) disappears.. (my dreams are random) and I was woken up by my family, than I went back to bed and my dream continued and instead of my ex, it was my bestest guy friend Willard sitting there, and slowly Hector was disappearing, than suddenly we weren't outside, we were in a hair salon in a mall. And I ran out, for who knows what reason and than I came back and the hair salon suddenly turned into an indoor pool at the mall, and I jumped in, Willard disappeared and soon the pool was filled with like a million olympic swimmers in training, and they were being told to do laps and you had to hurry or you'd be trampled by the swimmers, and I have no idea why I was slow, but I was, (I'm a pretty fast swimmer, being native you are basically BORN in the water XD) and than I was stepped on and I tried to swim back to the surface and I was running out of air and I burst through the surfaces and I woke up gasping for air.. in my sleep I was actually holding my breath xD

My dream last night...:
I don't even know HOW it started...but I guess I was camping, and than suddenly the boys from Big Time Rush appear, we are friends and they aren't famous to me and I don't love them like I do out of the dream world. Anyways we were camping and I guess I was growing close to James Maslow, from BTR. (I don't even know why him? Do I secretly love him? I've always been Team Kogan! [Kenall and Logan]) Than we were like chilling on an air mattress or something and I was laying on his arm, and his arm was around me. Don't ask... and he wasn't 20, he was 17! Only two years older than me, that's not bad. Anyways we had to pack up and I guess I didn't want to ruin are friendship or something and I was upset and I went to pack up my stuff in my tent and I was laying on the air mattress and I saw this green flowere blanket, we have two in our house, one is green and the other is green-blue and I only use the green-blue one and I was all like "WHAT THE HECK IS THE GREEN BLANKET DOING HERE?" and than suddenly my step dad appears lying on my air mattress and I'm like all "Hey Dad!" and than we leave to go on a boat to go back to the mainland (I guess we were camping on an island, not tropical, just a regular cedar tree island) and I tried to talk to James and I think there was about to be a kiss and than
My brother walks into my bedroom and wakes me up. "Where's the kitty?" he says and looks around my blankets when I'm clearly saying "He's not in here get out of my room before I hurt you!" and than I try to go back to my dream but nope... I can't sleep so I wake up for good.

Yes... my dreams are random and weird but I think it's something to do with what I watch/hear before I go to bed. I was watching The Bachelor and talking about my dad last night, so that's probably why my step dad was randomly in my dream and I also watched a Big Time Rush episode, one that I missed two weeks ago.. soo...

Now, you, (Amber, your the only one who comments on my silly posts) tell me what kind of dreams you have, are they weird, scary, funny, romantic etc.
XD

-Alado... who is apparently in love with James Maslow...

Father's...

You wanna know how I'm feeling?
Relieved.
My bad attitude, my rudeness, my sarcasm. Everything. I found the reason why I am so badly emotioned.
My father.
I was watching the Bachelor, 'cause it's 12:44am and I think it's the season 11, first episode and the bachelor guy, Brad was talking about how he was commitment-phobic and he went to see a therapist and the reason was, because he never saw his father.
Exact words:

"I found an incredible therapist and we really analyzed the reasons behind my phobia of commitment, definitely have trust issues. We talked about how my father wasn't around much at all, my father let me down more times than I can count, and hell yes it makes me closed off because that hurts. I don't know if I've ever let someone know the real me because when I give my all to somebody and I'm let down, I revert back to that feeling of when my father told me he was going to pick my brother and I up for a day out and I didn't hear from him for 5 years. I've realized that the majority of my life I've been a very, very closed of individual, only because I want to push people away before they can hurt me and it's such a sad way to live. All that 'tough guy' stuff is just a fisaude and it took a lot of therapy and it look a lot of time but I've learned that the only way I'm only going to truly fall in love is to be vulnerable, to open up my heart."

That is exactly what is wrong with me.
My father left when I was 3 years old. I never spoke to him for 10 years! He finally got up the nerve to call for me and my brother, he asked if we wanted to spend the day with him, to get to catch up on the years we missed together, and than... he didn't phone back, he didn't message us, he didn't get us. I was let down. Crushed. Angry. Upset. There were too many emotions for me to handle I completely closed myself off. 2 years later he added me on facebook and he messages me from time to time saying Happy St. Patrick's Day, or Happy Birthday, or Merry Christmas, but not once did he ask how I've been, or ask if I was ever angry at him. He's an idiot and I legit don't care about him AT ALL. He's not my father. I don't even call him 'Dad'. I call him by his first name, my twin brother on the other hand is always trying to talk to him, trying to get him to notice him. I kind of feel sorry, because my brother's hopes are always so high when he talks to... him and he's always let down.
It actually breaks my heart to actually see his name.
Am I hurt?
Yes.
Do I wish I could close myself off from everybody?
Yes.
But I won't anymore. I will tell my mom I want to see a therapist so I can let myself out of this closet called hell.
For you who don't understand how upset I am at the moment, don't understand me. But I don't blame you, you've never known the real me. No one has. Not even my own mother.
It's time for a change.
I won't let my dad into my life at all. If he messages me or calls me I won't answer.
My real dad, isn't a dad. My step dad, who my mom separated with, is my one and only dad.
He is the only father figure in my eyes. He hasn't ever left me and he calls me every week and I see him whenever I can.

This little post has finally opened me up. For once in what seems like months, have I cried. I hate my father for doing this too me. For making me a closed off person, for turning me into a cold hearted girl. Not anymore....

Episode of the Bachelor: http://www.megavideo.com/?d=D6LV2BAB
3:01-4:14

Grow a- Calm down, Alado...

You know what really ticks me off?
Guys!
I mean, my friend (not really anymore), Jared, they guy I used to like and a deeply dislike..
Well we talked and he told me he still liked me and stuff, and I told him I possibly liked him back, and than he asked if we could possibly have a thing when school starts in September and I said possibly, because I don't know who I may still be friends with.
He was like yeah okay I totally get it.
AND THAN HE GOES OFF AND DOES SOMETHING THAT COMPLETELY DISGUSTS ME!
I didn't think he was a pig, though I should've known it 'cause in May he like falcon punched my butt, I whipped around and glared at him, but I didn't say anything 'cause my twin brother was upfront and he would've beat up the kid.
Anyways, I shook that off and than he said:
Would you have sex with anyone?
I was like, SERIOUSLY? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? In my head. What I said was like. "Uhm... NO."
and he asked why I said:
1. It's disgusting and disturbing
2. I'm not a sl*t
3. I wouldn't do it with just anyone, and especially not when I'm fifteen
and
4. No.

HE SAID:
1. It's not disgusting
2. you wouldn't be a sl*t
3. I'm not just anyone ;)
and
4. Yes

I was literally like: Can I fricken slap you? No joke.
But I completely ignored him and all the feelings I've ever felt for him suddenly disappeared and I felt utterly disgusted for even liking him!
I thought he was a nice kid! He even told me he changed! No. He did not.
And than on the last day of school (this was a couple weeks ago) he asked my best friend when she was sitting down for the exams, "You can sit on my lap," and he was dead serious. She was disturbed.
And than right after the exam he sees me with my friend Cindy and he's trying to get hugs out of us but I just stood there and finally he gave me a hug and I kind of let my arms hang to my side 'cause I don't even like this kid as a friend anymore!
And than like five minutes ago, on facebook I asked, "Hey, are you mad at me or something?" and he logged off! It ticks me off!
And than he made a status update five minutes later and it didn't say he was on. He made himself appear offline so he wouldn't have to talk to me 'cause I "hurt his feelings" since I didn't hug him back.
Pffftttt.
Guys and their piggish ways, they will never change.

Fears

Everyone in the world has atleast one fear, whether they are hiding it or not.
Fears are what keeps people from being too perfect, or too brave. Personally, I have a lot of fears, because of well... things that happened to me in my childhood.
For example, I'm afraid of spiders because I used to watch 8-Legged Freaks a lot when I was a kid, it's actually a pretty intense show.
I'm afraid of heights because I fell out of a tree when I was 6.
I'm afraid of bikes because I crashed last summer and broke my collarbone and opposite wrist.
I'm afraid of someone coming into my house so I lock the doors every night due to the fact that someone tried breaking into my twins brother room last year and they had machetes and bear mace.
I'm afraid of people popping up because of the scary movies I was forced to watch when I was 3+.

It's weird. I'm afraid of bikes but not snakes. I actually love holding them, as well as I'm not afraid of bears and cougars. There is a lot around my house. Earlier today their was a bear spotted and a cougar and her two cubs. Apparently the cougar mother was huge! They've been spotted a lot as well. Anyways, what I'd like to know is your fears and why you are afraid of them!

TOTALLY AMAZING AND INCREDIABLY AWESOME SONG...just saying

Well, she was precious like a flower
She grew wild, wild but innocent
A perfect prayer in a desperate hour
She was everything beautiful and different

Stupid boy, you can't fence that in
Stupid boy, it's like holdin' back the wind

She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
Stupid boy, stupid boy

So what made you think you could take a life
And just push it, push it around?
I guess to build yourself up so high
You had to take her and break her down

Well, she laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't

You stupid boy, oh, you always had to be right
But now you lost the only thing
That ever made you feel alive
Yeah, yeah

Well, she laid her heart and soul right in your hands, yeah
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans, yes, you did
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't

You stupid boy
Oh, I'm the same old, same old stupid boy

It took a while for her to figure out
She could run but when she did
She was long gone, long gone

I don't know but I really love this song. It kind of means a lot too me, being I've had a lot of experiance's with well... Stupid Boys.

Comment, I'd love to hear what you think!